Results Day

Hi guys!

So today is results day and my results are released at 10.00am. It's now 9.00am so collecting my results is getting close! At the moment I'm not that nervous but I am about to leave and meet my friends at school, some of which I haven't seen for nearly three months which is crazy. Anyway, wish me luck!

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The time is now 3.00pm and the reason I have left it so long after before writing this is working out how I feel has been hard because the general message I have got from my teachers and parents is I should have achieved better grades but I should still be pleased with what I have got. In theory this makes sense but trying to be proud of myself while still having a part of me knowing I haven't got the best results for me is hard. For this blog to have any meaning I need to be totally honest and raw with you and myself so I can know how I really felt when I look back so I am going to post my grades on here but it wasn't something I was planning to do this morning. So here goes:

English Language:                  A
English Literature:                  C
Physical Education:                A
Business Studies:                  B
History:                                 B
Spanish:                                D
Chemistry:                             C
Physics:                                C
Biology:                                 C
Maths:                                   B

I know a majority of those grades are respectable and I am pleased with them as I do get to take the A-Level courses I want to and I suppose that means I have done what I needed to do. Maybe part of the reason I feel this way is because two years have built up to this moment and all the hard work and pressure have led to an anti-climax of sorts where I feel like I have been left hanging, waiting for something that isn't going to come. It's a strange feeling, I'm not sad or overly disappointed but almost as if I am missing something. Maybe that is what this kind of disappointment feels like.

Anyway, beside that I am very thinking positive thoughts about my grades and A-levels really so sorry about this negative post but it's how I feel and sorry if it doesn't make sense but I forewarned you about rambling! On the plus side the sun is starting to come out here which is a reason in itself to be grateful considering the track record of British weather.

I am with my Auntie and Uncle in London this weekend so hopefully some more positive posts and maybe even some cool pictures!

See ya later,
Emily xxx